Being pregnant and alone is no fun. The father of my child has decided he does not want the relationship anymore. He couldn’t handle all the problems I was throwing at him due to my crazy pregnancy hormones. I thought he would be around to help me with stuff to prepare for our child, but to my surprise he has completely disappeared out of my life. I thought I woud be able to deal with it but it seems like the closer I get to my due date the more it hurts. I find myself crying everyday. I have been trying to hide my emotions from my friends/family and often at a lost for words when people ask about him..I feel so stupid & I dont know what to say. In my heart I just cant believe the person he turned out to be. How can he be so cold and heartless and move on talking to other females just like that. I hate this feeling but I have no regrets towards this pregnancy at all.
One day, I know that I will look back at being abandoned pregnant and feel so strong. There will be more bad times ahead, but I know I’m strong enough to get through them.
Nobody hides pain better than a mother who is trying to stay strong for her kids.
…3 more months to go!
The Melanie Journal 